I just found out that I’ve been clenching my jaw at night…  I have Bruxism.  SUCKY!  I went to the dentist for a possible root canal and he told me, nope, I must be clenching my teeth at night!  And sure enough I’ve been waking up every night since discovering that this is in fact, well, fact! I’m starting to think that it’s causing the headaches/migraines I’ve been suffering from.  As well as the neck stiffness, ear problems, and possible vertigo that I’ve had.  My jaw hurts now that I’m aware of it.  It’s tired.

So what to do about all of this?  I’m not sure.  I’ve thought about kicking the stress from my life.  That would be nice!  Mayo Clinic also said something about frustration.  Sure, would love to kick that too!  But let’s be realistic.  Unless I just turn into a psycho bitch that’s not really going to happen.  I mean, everyone is used to me being pathalogically friendly just like a golden retriever.  But I suppose my health is more imporant that pleasing everyone all the time.

All that I know is, I just don’t want to move anymore!  And that’s not going to happen either.  I think this is the root stressor.  I’m tired.  I just want to sleep for about a week.  I want to lay in my boyfriends arms and not move until I’m good and ready to!

Maybe some stress will dissipate when I am finally living with him.  Just a month and a half.  Hell, I’d just love to see him every day!  I hate this shite of being away from him!

I’m tired and tired of grinding!